A former Hillsong leader's wife is leaning on God after facing months of judgement from others.

In November of last year, Carl Lentz publically confessed to an affair after being fired from Hillsong East Coast for "moral failings". His wife, Laura, was fired at the same time.

“She, of course, seemed devastated as this was just the cherry on top of this whole ordeal for her," a source with The U.S Sun said at the time of the split.

Now on Laura and Carl's 18th wedding anniversary, Laura is speaking out for the first time.

"I have learnt a lot about myself over the past few months. Now more than ever I know the kindness of God, His grace, forgiveness and strength. I have found true friendships- the ones who have been with me on the mountaintops are the same ones who are with me during my darkest valley!!" she writes on Instagram in her first post since the news broke.

She shares that her experience has been difficult.

"I have taken time away from social media because it was not good for my soul, I have blocked and deleted more people and comments than I can count. Trolls are cowards, SOME 'Christians' are anything but kind, gracious, or loving...but that won’t stop me from growing upwards and getting stronger."

Laura has found strength in her loved ones, hoping to be known for her unconditional love.

"I will not forget who abandoned us, but I choose to keep my heart free of bitterness and remain thankful for those that have stayed and loved us. I don’t want to judge others nor do I want to be judged... one thing a friend told me during this time is, 'I would rather be accused of being too gracious toward someone, over being accused of judging someone too harshly'... I want to be known as a woman who sees the good in people and truly loves people unconditionally."

The Australian-native posted a photo of palm trees that have been inspiring her, saying she has watched them "always grow upwards" and looks at them as symbols of freedom, righteousness, reward, and resurrection.