Christian actor Zachary Levi reveals it was therapy and faith in God that helped him out of the pit of depression in his new memoir, hoping it can help others facing the same situation.
In an exclusive interview with The Christian Post, Levi opens up about a dark time in his life just five years ago.
"When I was 37, about five years ago, I had a complete breakdown," Levi says. "And I basically came to the place where I didn't want to live anymore. And I was really very, very lucky that one of my sisters took it upon herself to go and search the internet for a place that I might be able to go and seek some really deep healing. I went to this three weeks of very intensive, life-changing life-saving therapy, that got me back on my feet. And simultaneously, because I went and did that work, all of a sudden, things in my life started opening up."
The Hollywood actor has played many roles, including the lead in the Christian film American Underdog.
In the interview, Levi shares that as a child, he was psychologically abused by his mother, herself a victim of unrecognized abuse, and later, by his stepfather. Generational trauma, the actor said, is both 'scientific and biblical.'
"As a young boy, with this big heart, who just wanted to go and love people, it was a very detrimental environment to grow up in. And what I learned was how to constantly run from the pain that I was suffering constantly. Go and run away from the abusiveness that was in my household through various addictions … it all became very unresolved, unhealed trauma."
From that pain in the light of Hollywood, he turned to sex, drugs and alcohol to cope with his pain. But it wasn’t until his 2015 divorce from actress Missy Peregrym, he said, that his inner turmoil came to head.
"Little did I know that all of that was feeding into the same trauma that I experienced as a child and I was just reliving a lot of that pain over and over and over again. The enemy, the darkness tells us you're uniquely broken; nobody's been broken like you, nobody's going to understand your brokenness, everyone's going to think, ‘Wow, how weird they're broken like this because nobody is broken like this."
Levi says he now understands that it's a lie 'from the pit of hell.' He writes about it in his new memoir Radical Love: Learning to Accept Yourself and Others.
"No amount of performance is ever going to ultimately earn your worth or your love; you are lovable, and you are loved simply because you are. The fact that we exist is a miracle. We are all these walking, talking miracles. We are all children of God, and we are all worthy of being loved on every possible level. I think that's the biggest thing that Christ was trying to get us all to understand when He was here."